Peace be to you!
Last night was the first night that all 3 of my boys were gone to college or gone to pursue their own life. I was deeply lonely. I was without my “little buddies”. I had no one to “hassle me, try and get an open shot, flip me off, tell me I was an idiot…….this may take some explaining
Like with my dad, it just felt odd to tell me boys “I LOVE YOU” because, well…we just aren’t that way; we communicate to each other in our own unique way that we are in each others hearts. I have signs for each boy that means, I love you. I will not tell them here on this post since I want to keep this something that we only do to each other on the DL when no one is looking…..
Songs have come to have a special place of reminder of a great time or something special between just my son and I….The boys have all their special song(s) that triggers a memory for me. Eric: Brown Eyed Girl by Van Morrison…. It was snowing one winter and I had just cleared the driveway with that wet heavy snow and then….it started to snow hard again…..When I was so mad, I was frustrated….and then the radio we were listening to played that particular Van Morrison song and Eric as a little 2 year old started to dance….He danced with a HUGE smile on his face like a 2 year old could do…Watching him jump up and down instantly erased my negative feeling and I could not help but dance. Every time I hear that song, it takes me back to that magical moment that I will never forget as long as I live. I hope this is a memory I keep when I meet my maker.
About the time I was teaching Rob at the high school I worked and he (and all his brothers were students) was taking my Beatles class, I formally introduced him and the class to the true magna opus of the Brian Wilson masterpiece: Pet Sounds. When he heard the first guitar riff of Wouldn’t it be nice, I could tell something in him changed…What happened was something I think I will keep to ourselves but to suffice it to say, When I hear, God Only Knows, (1st track of Side 2) AND Wouldn’t it be nice I remember that teenage boy who faced a lot of demons, went to a dark side in our life. You see, Rob “left the family”…Thank you Joe Coto for the best father advise I needed to hear that night….Suffice to say, Even St. John of the Cross went through a “dark night” in his life. Rob has since began to open my heart to perhaps change my way of thinking….At least, I am listening and examining all sides before I go back to a set of values I was spoon fed and forced to believe. Rob and I are tighter than ever; it is if I went through this dark night with him but without him there with me. Now, I can not wait to see him and will look for excuses to just be with him at his college town. I hope this is a memory I keep when I meet my maker.
Jack’s “songs” did not come into being until about 3 days before he left for college and as I think about it, not only does it link me with him, but it ALSO links me to my past. Tim, Tom, Joe and Bill were the most important men in my life when I was in High School as we did everything together. We were just tight and for the most part, we remain very tight….especially over the decades. The songs that I have to relate Jack are from one of the best albums of the 1970’s: WHO’S NEXT. Jack ( and Tim and Tom and Joe) song is Won’t get fooled again and Baba O’Reilley. Jack likes it because I think the lyrics speak to him: I know he was frustrated living here like all post high school graduates and wanted to spread his wings like his older brothers. He paid particular attention to when Roger Daltry screamed that iconic scream at the end of WGFA. I could just see how he could related to it. With Baba, I know the musician in him was curious as to the repeating lesley keyboard patch that Pete Townshed plays as the open of the song. I remember thinking long and hard on that one. How did Pete do that??? It also seemed to hype Jack up like a work out song. I hope this is a memory I keep when I meet my maker.
As I stated in the title of this work, never drink when you are depressed. Only Drink when you are happy and are celebratory…. I think drinking while you are sad, or in any type of bad mood leaves you susceptible to forming a habit that will take you over and you must ALWAYS BE IN CONTROL OF YOUR FACULTIES
I must confess that when I was under any type of stress, i would listen to my music very loudly. I did not realise how depressing IN THROUGH THE OUT DOOR by Led Zeppelin was …. I just listen to how cool the music sounded and was sad when I learned shortly after that, They would break up and not make any more new music….So, I listened to HOT DOG for about 6 times because …..
But they just rolled my “Boys” right out the door
Oh yeah, they just rolled my “boys” right out the door
But they just rolled my “boys” right out the dooooooooooorrrrrrr!!!!!!
This boy will also stay tight with his brothers forever (Tim, Tom and Joe)
This dad loves you, my sons (Eric, Robbie and Jack)
Bye now, And God Love you!!!